In my last blog I asked that you, my friend, would pray for us. We are pregnant. We have SC Medicaid and could not find a doctor. We really wanted a Christian man to deliver our baby. To be completely honest, we wanted the same doctor that delivered Abram to deliver our second son or daughter.
I called over 35 doctors in the Augusta area. We also want to deliver at Doctors Hospital. We had such a great experience last time at Doctors. to make a long story short - we only found one doctor who would take SC Medicaid and delivered at a hospital in Augusta. So I called around to check references on this doctor and was told NO WAY. I was told that I should drive to Aiken rather than see this doctor. So now what! Talk about frustrating! So to be honest, for about a week I worried. I thought what am I going to do. I made an appt with the doctor with the bad reputation just so I could at least see a doctor and confirm what my body was 100% sure of already.
Finally God gave sweet peace. You know that peace that He describes as a peace that surpasses our own understanding... that peace. So one morning I was praying and this was my prayer,
"God, you know we need a miracle. We are trusting you. You know our situation. You know this baby. This is your baby Father. We are asking you for a miracle. Maybe that means you will provide the money we need to pay Dr Byars. Maybe that means you will send us a doctor that is honorable and takes our insurance. Or maybe you will deliver this good baby through the a doctor with a bad reputation. We don't know how - but we trust you God."
I kid you not - within two hours... TWO HOURS... my phone rang. The weekend before (this was a Monday) I was sick. I threw up probably 20 times in one day so I called Dr Byars office. I got the on call doctor and she talked me through some things. The phone call that I got was from Dr Byars office. I assumed that he was calling to check on me. He heard I was sick and you know, just checking on me. Yes, he did that. He also asked me if Jesse and I found a doctor. I told him not really but that I kept the appt with the doc with the bad rep. I simply told him that we were just trusting God with this baby. So he proceeded to tell me that God had "been on him" since we last talked. He told me that sometimes God speaks and we hear it but we don't listen. He said that God had to thump him pretty hard sometimes. He then asked me if Jesse and I would consider letting him be our doctor through this pregnancy - wait - for FREE.
Now breath and rub the chill bumps.. :).... What could I say? I said, "Are you kidding me?!" I was speechless. Of course I regained control of myself and said yes. I told Dr Byars about my prayer that morning and how God was using him in that moment to confirm HIS faithfulness to my family.
This is where the honey flows! How sweet is life knowing that you are a child of the Creator of all, A child of the King of all Kings, the everlasting Father! God has been so faithful to us. He has done immeasurably more than we could have hoped for.
I will tell you this too - there have been two months recently that we did not know how we would pay our mortgage payment... both times God provided in very unexpected ways. He is ALWAYS faithful.
Sometimes I think we forget who we are when we are His. Tonight Abram crawled in my arms and started to rock. Now, he does not let me rock him to sleep anymore. He would rather play. But tonight He climbed into my arms and let me know He needed me. More than that - He wanted me to sing over Him. I can not tell you how much God spoke while I rocked, sang to, and prayed over my son tonight. I love him an amount that I myself can not comprehend. How much more then does my heavenly Father love me - His daughter. When was the last time I let the Lord quiet me with His love? When was the last time I crawled into my Father's arms and relished in the fact that HE SINGS OVER ME.
The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."
Tonight, my friend. Tonight, I let the Lord quiet me. I sat as the Lord sang over me - His daughter. What fullness, what joy!
I will tell you that life is not all peachy right now either. We struggle. Everything is different for us. Money is tight. The stores are not doing their best which is stressful. I am pregnant - sleepy all the time, nauseated most of the time, and my heart is burdened for my daddy who still has liver, lung, colon, and skin cancer. I struggle with surrender and submission. Life is still life... one thing after another. But God is still God... one day for all days. He is so faithful - how can I not sit in His arms and be quieted by His love?
Tonight when I prayed for our children I asked God for only good things for them. I prayed that all that they do in all their days be for His glory and His renown. If that is my prayer for my children, my greatest desire for them is good... Then what of the Father's desire for me, for my family, my friends, my sweet daddy who is probably awake right now thinking about tomorrow. He desires good for us. He is a good, HOLY Father.
I am so glad that tonight Abram crawled in my lap. I started to write this blog earlier until Abram crawled onto the sofa and mingled between me and the laptop. He needed and wanted his mommy. I needed that. I needed to love him tonight and I needed to love HIM tonight. I needed to hear God speak and He did just that.
Keep praying for us. We heard the baby's heart beat today. Amazing. It's just that simple and so complex. Today our baby is about is about the size of a lime. He or she is able to open and close his/her little hands. We are 13 weeks today. You can go to www.babycenter.com and check out the development of our baby by week.
Also, pray for my daddy. He is starting to get depressed. Life is so different for him right now. I have never known a day when my daddy didn't work - when he didn't want to work. Now he can't work. He just finished 6 months of chemo. The chemo did not shrink his colon cancer any so on June 22 he will have part of his colon removed. Pray for his health, his spirit, his doctors, and his recovery. Pray for my sweet momma. She is anxious. She does not know life without my daddy. They married when she was only 14 years old. Pray for strength for her, for her heart, and pray for some Godly women to come along side of her and simply be there for her.
You can also pray for Jesse. He is working with Meybohm Realty now. Pray that he will have confidence, motivation, and that God will bless his career.
Pray for me that I will keep learning to surrender and to let my husband lead our family. Pray that God will keep me and "Baby E-Dos" (baby E #2) safe through this pregnancy.
Thanks for being a friend.. and obviously a reader.