One Year - Two Year

I can not believe that my lil BABY son is about to turn One year old. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was waddling around with him inside. This past year has been one of the busiest years of my life. I think I have felt every emotion you can feel. This time last year I was 9 (which felt like 40) months pregnant. We started Shoppe 3130. I gave birth, celebrated my one year anniversary and ... well that is all but that is more than enough!

Time flew by last year. I guess it is true - time does fly when you are having fun. I have loved every stage of Abram's life. I loved the cuddling when he was newborn. I loved feeding him, rocking him, and singing to him. I loved watching him learn to grab things, sit up, roll over, crawl, and now walk. I love his laugh, his singing, his expressions, I even love his little cry. I love his hugs in the morning and his kisses all day. I love that he loves me and that he knows I love him.

I love that he wants me to take care of him. I love that he needs me.

God has taught me so much over the past year with Abram. I was afraid I would not be a good mommy at first but not anymore. I want to be a good mommy. It is one of the most important things to me in this life. It is important enough that I had to leave a job I loved.

Today Abram threw a little fit.. yea... not even one yet and he knows how to throw a fit (as my momma would call it!) In the midst of his fit I realized that I have done that same thing to God. You see, when God won't give me my way - I often throw a fit, a pity party, and simply do not want to hear any reasoning. I simply want my way.. anything else ... well anything else is not what I want. I tense up, plant my feet, and remain stubborn until God gently reminds me that I need him. He reminds me of His love for me.

I am excited about this next year with Abram. I know that God has much more to speak to me about and to teach me.

UPDATE ON DADDY

My dad is half way done with chemo. He has responded pretty well. He has good days and bad days. I think he will do better when the weather is warmer. He has been in the house most of the winter. I am thankful for sweet times that God gives us. I am also thankful for the way I get to see my daddy love my son. I pray he is here to love all of my children.

Jesse and I are now MSC Missionaries. That simply means we are self supporting missionaries: we raise our own support.

We never know just how God is going to provide for us. We just know he will. He does. He has. God provided for us this month in some pretty amazing ways. He is always on time.

Jesse is now a real estate agent. That is exciting! He is a little anxious because he has never done this before. I think it is more exciting that way - you see when we don't know what we are doing, we can't claim the glory for our self. If he does well, God receives the glory. I like it that way.

There are some things on my mind right now that frustrate me. I won't go into any detail for the sake of not stirring the pot. I will just ask that you pray for us. We need closure and pray that God will give us that with some issues.

I am so thankful for you, friend. Have a wonderful day, night, or if you are like me, early early morning.

Much love,

Jen